A Quick Update

I know that some of you are looking for an update on me and my surgery.

I wish I had something super-inspiring to share.... but I don't.

I am doing as well as can be expected, I think. The physical recouperation isn't as bad this time around as it was last time. I have a 15 inch incision from the back of my underarm area to just past the midpoint of my chest. It is stapled shut. I have a surgical drain through tomorrow. It sounds and looks way bad, but although I am exceptionally tired, I am not in a huge amount of pain.

I walked with my husband all the way to the corner and back yesterday; we live in the middle of the block. About 2 houses down, Tom asked if I wanted to stop and say "Hi" to the neighbors.... I couldn't. I just needed to go home. I was done.

I had a major emotional meltdown... well several of them actually.... Saturday. That was the day I could take my bandages off and take a shower. I thought I was prepared... but I looked in the mirror and just cried.

Then I cried my way through the shower.

Then I cried to my mom.

Then later... I cried to my husband, actually I finally cried myself to sleep with him rubbing my head.

I woke up to a better day.

So how am I doing? I don't really know how to answer that, except that I'm doing.